Shame was born one late afternoon in January,2,maybe 3 years ago, in a room of a hotel in Budapest .For a long time it didn’t have any shape, even if its presence was there…
Looking back at that time, i don’t see a title or existence, as if i fell into a trap, and got out again…
Suddenly as time went by, there was a moment which sparkled the idea, there had to be a fight with reality, the camera became the connection between subconsciousness and existence…
The following pictures, are part of my own confessions, like a mirror which reflects fear, desire, phantasies, nightmares, memories…Nothing else…
In order to create this, i had to draw up my own memories or those of people close to me, i had to "borrow" their stories which i recreated from the beginning…
I tried, most of the time, through a surreal way, to express the different details of the body, the right to be angry, to be enraged, violent, sad…I met -found me, my own self on the other side, playing the role of the person being photographed or, being the photographer.
Every picture was a role-play, a real or imaginary person, a painful procedure which i had to imprint-reflect without knowing if i managed to show the war taking place inside us living in a fake, made out of paper, world, where morality and discrimination are at war with the perfection of a modern, neurotic woman who must hysterically accept and faithfully follow flawless beauty and filters on Instagram and social media…
I was influenced by photographers, painters, writers in order to create SHAME, for example Cindy Shermans work, the theatrical figures and stage persona she created inspired me to try and create a debate between these pictures so as to create* questions and not to give answers about how complicated women, as an existence, are…
De Bovouars "LE DEUXIEME SEXE I ET II" and the acceptance of her saying ""Woman is not born, you become."" made the original idea, stronger…
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Her sexual implications in her play Claudia Cahum, her search of identity, the right to be different…. >
Frida Kahlo’s surreal mood, her taut self-portraits
